Sometimes I would feel happy and blissful, but they were always temporary feelings. Then I would
quickly feel empty again.
I also experienced deep depression and suicidal thoughts, and intense anxiety. Often the anxiety was so intense, it was physically painful.
I would constantly read books and articles about the law of attraction and the power of our thoughts. I attended seminars about energy healing and I have had many energy healing sessions over the years. I would feel better for a little while, but I was always left feeling incomplete. I had many psychic readings, angel card readings, and even learned how to do angel card readings for myself. I did guided meditations, yoga, and listened to Abraham Hicks every day. I even learned how to channel and practiced with a friend on a weekly basis for years. I also did automatic writing, which is another form of channeling. I did tons of law of attraction exercises and practices, including scripting, visualization, vision boards, positive affirmations and more...I did these things for about 16 years.
All of these things led me nowhere. In fact, I was feeling more and more lost and hopeless as time went on.
It's important to take care of yourself with good nutrition, exercise, sleep, etc, but the types of goals I had were mostly materialistic desires: make a lot of money, buy a fancy house and fancy cars, get the perfect body, find the perfect guy, etc.
Even after all those years of practicing those techniques, none of those goals came to fruition!
I realize now it's because I was completely turned away from God without even knowing it. If you look up the origins of the law of attraction, it is downright frightening. These teachings come from
the enemy. His main tool is deception. And I was massively deceived.
Millions of people have fallen prey to this deception.
These false and dangerous teachings are sprinkled with some truth. Many of them even have references to the Bible! The main goal of these teachings is to lead people away from God.
This past July, I was (yet again) deep into watching law of attraction videos on YouTube, trying to find new techniques that might help me escape my misery. I was feeling so lost and completely exhausted from the daily grind of stress, anxiety, and depression, searching for something that would finally help me.
One of the suggested videos was from a Christian ministry. It was a testimony from a girl who was deep into new age teachings. She was having disturbing experiences and she was so lost in that world. The video was shocking enough to make me realize I was also as lost as her!
I watched a few more "new age to Jesus" testimonies, including Doreen Virtue's testimony. When I watched her testimony, I stopped what I was doing and prayed to God to forgive me for messing with the work of the enemy. Right then and there I asked Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. I cried so hard and felt so many emotions: relief that God had saved me, sadness for all the years I was lost, guilt for playing with fire for so many years...I was so incredibly grateful that God saved me from that darkness. I truly felt the words of Amazing Grace: I once was lost, but now I'm found.
I immediately threw away every single new age book and anything remotely related to the occult. I was shocked at how many books I had! The search was endless because it did not lead to the truth.
The truth is there is only one God, the Creator of the entire universe, and there is only one way to get to Him, and that is through Jesus Christ. Every other search is fruitless.
In future posts, I will write about the origins of the law of attraction, the false Jesus (scary but true), the danger of angel cards, the danger of channeling, the truth about psychic readings, the truth about yoga, as well as the other many dangers and deceptions of the new age.
I first came to Jesus when I was about 20 years old. That was twenty years ago! One night, I was flipping through the channels on tv, and I landed on a Christian show. At the end of the show, they said, if you would like to ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior, you can pray this prayer. I don't remember the exact words but I asked Jesus Christ to be my Lord and Savior. I remember after praying that prayer (some refer to it as the sinner's prayer), I understood who Jesus really is and I wanted to read the Bible for the first time in my life.
After coming to Jesus at that young age, I don't think I really knew how to stay on the path. I had a hard time finding a church and I'm sure there were a lot of things I didn't understand.
I don't remember the exact moment, but soon after that, I was led so far away from Jesus. I attended the Institute for Integrative Nutrition in person in 2003.. There, I was exposed to reincarnation, yoga, meditation, and other religions and beliefs. I think that partially contributed to me walking away from Jesus.
I am so grateful every day, and I often cry tears of immense gratitude, but I sometimes wonder if I would have had a family or a different life altogether. I know that God has a plan for me and I trust Him. Now I want to expose the truth about the new age so that other people don't get swept up in that dangerous world.
Over the years, I experienced sleep paralysis. During those episodes, I would feel a very scary presence, and I would not be able to move or talk. It was also hard to breathe. Sometimes I would not be able to breathe at all for a few seconds. I could physically feel that presence and it would try to hold me down. Somehow I had the idea to call out to Jesus. When I could finally speak and say his name out loud, that scary presence would immediately leave, and I would be able to move and breathe.
I realize now exactly what was happening. It was a demon trying to torment me. You don't have to be afraid, and I'm no longer afraid because I know that God is with me. And demons flee when you call on Jesus and say the name of Jesus Christ out loud.
If you go to YouTube and type "new age to Jesus" in the search box, you'll be astounded at how many testimonies there are. When you are in the new age, you can't see the deception. But as soon as you turn away from it and turn towards God, it all makes complete sense.
Now I feel so much peace and I know that God has a purpose for my life. I no longer have that horrible anxiety. I feel and know that God is always with me. The suicidal thoughts have completely disappeared. Completely! I no longer have depression. I no longer have road rage. Of course I still experience stress at work and while driving, but now it doesn't ruin my entire day or bring me down.
I am so immensely grateful and I want to share how life-changing this has been. I feel like a new person.
God can rescue you from the darkness if you turn to Him and ask for help!
